love letter & because you see

Love Letter
I wrote you a love letter on a
napkin then cleaned the floor
with it. I presume you're like the
rest, enjoy crushing my feelings
on a surface you can walk on.

as if they weren't broken already...
as if they weren't choppy enough...

Truth is, you have no idea what
I wish to say to you and if ever
given the chance, I'd stumble like
chained ankles of a prisoner who
lives behind bars of acceptance.

because no one has taken me for who I am...
because everyone has tried molding me into who I'm not...

I apologize in advance for not telling
you that on my worst day, in my
saddest hour, I see the color of your eyes
in this ink and I can't help but to stare .

like I've never seen them before...
like they are a non invented color...

I'm too coward to tell you this.
I'm too nervous of your response.
I'm too ashamed of falling so quickly.
I'm worried you might be like the rest.

This is what I get for over analyzing.
Wasted words and a clean floor
for only me to dance on.



Because you see...

For every step to your happiness
You seem to take a fall
With every chase of gratitude
It hides behind your door
For all you've had and all you've cared
Has crumbled and is no more

For all You've had and all You've lost
For all the complaints and all your fears
Not once did you notice me
Not once in all these years

Because you see
I have always cared for you
But you have never noticed
Because you see
I was always there for you
But you never cared to speak

Though time has passed
I want to let you know
That if you ever wish to hold on to me
I promise I'll never let go