Candy Coated.

candy coated secrets upon candy coated lies
something so sweet covering something so bitter inside.
silent screams echo in the darkness as the rain falls
lightning and thunder shatter making them feel so small

you smile that empathetic smiles as if you really knew
as if everyone was just on stage waiting for a cue
and every word and every line were just part of a horrid script
but what if there was a mistake that fell from these tainted lips?
when the world starts spinning and you can't hold on
just look into this story and find out where you went wrong

candy coated secrets upon candy coated lies
something so sweet covering something so bitter inside.
silent screams echo in the darkness as the rain falls
lightning and thunder shatter making them feel so small

porcelain eyes stare blindly at you waiting for your next move
the audience smirks and says "what are you trying to prove"
you break under pressure and scatter pieces on the floor.
internally your breaking a little more and a little more
your mascara runs as the radio blares, glitter falls from your eyes.
your room is your stage an egotistical disguise
you sing your sad love songs about a girl who is broken and torn
with a fragile heart that is shattered, stitches that are worn

candy coated secrets upon candy coated lies
something so sweet covering something so bitter inside.
you smile that empathetic smiles as if you really knew
as if everyone was just on stage waiting for a cue

crimson kisses stain her pale white complexion
whispers softly brush her ears shes picture perfection
as the radio plays and her tears stain her checks
she looks up at the sky and tries to speak
illuminating lies, falling deeper into her own darkened protection
pulling her apart with every line of connection.
her eyes gaze up at you as she holds your hands.
so cold, so very cold you are, you let go, she falls, it was your plan.

candy coated secrets upon candy coated lies
something so sweet covering something so bitter inside.

Cookie Cutter

is there any end to the lies?
any possible way to just try?
look inside, your the one person who doesn't make me want to hide.
ive mastered every story, perfected every game
just step in and erase the torment and the pain
brainwash all the sins and denigrate all my faults
turn me into your little cookie cutter
the one that can do no wrong
perfect in everyway
breathless to the taste
maybe you'll like me better
if all i am is fake.

Moon

my blood red moon whispers reflections of romance and tears
all the pain and joy that took me through all the years
crimson scars remind me and i learn to forgive
its really hard to love when it hurts so much to live.
when i thought i lost everything
you let your filthy angel spread her wings
i never thought all this would drive me to tears
its just so fake
yet im so fragile if you touched me now i'd probably break.

Pretend

who cares if i pretend
does anyone care if i really try
its all the same in the end
in the ending i always die
its always over
and it always the same
i could change the whole story
i can write my own rhythms
it never really matters
it doesn't change the course.

Abyss

i am alone as i lay here surrounded
my head is in the clouds
impossible to stay grounded
the truth of the matter
its no ones fault but my own
once again my soul turned to stone
but never fear
i honestly dont mind
there no telling what in this black abyss
i may someday find.

Real You

just another scar
thats so deep inside
i'd always been so good
guarded from the pain
i've slipped before
and swore never again
it seems that didn't matter
as scared as i was
i pushed it all aside
convinced you weren't the same
that you'd never cut that deep.
i open my eyes as if in a fog
all i can feel is alone
i try to smile
just so you won't feel bad
my heart is shredded
chewed up and spit out.
everything seems hollow.
which one was the real you?

Break Away

when i needed you most
you weren't mind
shadows of the guilt
curse me left behind
the starry skies so clear that night
the only time ive ever known
not lost in my head
if only for a moment
no longer alone
my soul drops like stone
words are never actions
at least they agree
you'll never love her the way you love me
break away
crash and burn
what a pity to scared to run
betrayals the word
no matter the heart
tell your lies
play your games
don't need it tonight
it'll never be the same.

Lost

i've lost all sense of reality now
i don't know who i am.
the world is upside down and foggy no longer anything to bow.
my light is gone that fire deep inside
no sense of purpose anymore
the dreams faltered and died
fighting to bring it all back
revolutionize my thoughts
yet somehow i keep running wanting nothing but to pack.
i used to be so strong, so brave, and true.
all of a sudden i'm nothing.
do i owe that to you?

Be

my heart is bending and i swear its going to break
i trip and i stumble how much more will this take?
i'm so afraid of falling cuz i dont know whats in store.
i wish in this life there could be so much more.
a life where i dont have to fake it where i dont have to pretend to see.
just some place where one can simply be.

Shadow

i'm a secret for the darkness
the shadow on the wall
i don't need you there to catch me
believe me i never fall
theres no weakness
brought up only by pain
look me up and down
ravish me with those eyes
it makes no difference
you have nothing to gain
because time had been kind
with the cruelest of fate.

Fake

i promised myself i'd never do it again.
i swore i wouldn't let this feeling win.
but i guess i didn't.
ive never felt this way
its a crazy wish, a hopeful tear
when im with you, gone are my fears.
theres so much i want to say
all that you are is breathtaking to me
you've got that smile
that melts me to my core.
even though ive never felt so right
i can't help but wonder
is it worth opening that door
yet theres no way of knowing
it could change it all
all you'd have to do is let me fall
to drown in disappointment
im bouncing on this roller coaster
disappearing between my hope and worry.
ive surrendered it all
the highest of stakes
even if for just a moment
please don't be that fake.